There are a handful of people in my life right now that I would love nothing more than just to cut all ties with. I have spend months, even years, trying to deal with what I see as flaws in these individuals, and it is honestly just exhausting.
I feel like, with this group of people specifically, I continue to invest time and effort and energy and emotion into making our friendships work, and in the end, I know I will be dealing with the same problem in just a few short days.
This is where I feel torn, though. I am not some one who can easily just cut some one out of their life. I agonize over every single decision I make. Sometimes I curse myself for not getting the right flavor of coffee. Legit. So the idea of just cutting communication off with some one is just ridiculous to me- it won't happen.
I feel sad, though, because obviously these people continue to cross my mind, and life path for that matter, so there must be something inside of them I like. Why else would I continue to try and try and try to make things work if I don't really care?
I know that you should love some one for who they are: nobody should ever change themselves just to please another person. But there are instances, I feel, that change is not only a good thing, but a necessary thing.
These people I am talking about- they act immature over and over, and are extremely selfish. They don't say what they really want to say, and never call when they promise to. They put temporary relationships ahead of their friendships, and overall just make poor decisions. (To name a few.)
These are not good qualities. And not that I'm above them or anything; I am just as guilty as anyone of making poor decisions time to time. But when these flaws start to outweigh the good qualities in my "friends", I really have to question if salvaging the friendship is really worth the effort.
I mean, seriously; how much repetitive drama can one person really handle?
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